Thursday, March 4, 2010


Debt stinks. It is the reason why we shouldn't have another child yet. Debt. Its the reason why we cant buy a house, or go on vacation. Its the reason why my husband is working like a dog, clocking in 70+ hours a week. Its the reason why we are crammed in to a tiny 3rd floor apartment that sits across the street from a graffiti covered liquor store. Because we are buried in debt. Most of it student loans. It is terrible, and weighing heavily.

Lord Jesus, please PLEASE help us pay this debt off. Please help us sacrifice and keep a good attitude through all of this. Help us to stay on the same page, and continue to support each other.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


Am I going crazy?? I want to have another baby! I have a 5 month old little boy, and I want another baby. What is wrong with me? The only thing holding us back is money. It is really tight right now, and adding another child to the mix would not be the best idea in the world. But, we are also Christians and believe that God is the author of life and if He blessed us with another child, He would surely help us provide for that child. I want another baby. Right now we are using natural family planning as our method of birth control. I use, which is AWESOME. I am learning so much about my body and I feel so good about not popping a pill and wondering if it is causing an abortion. I just hope it works.

The funny thing is, I did not enjoy being pregnant at all. AT ALL. I hated it. Maybe because I had a physical job and worked until I was 38 weeks, or because I was huge during the hottest months of the year? Or because my husband worked nights and I felt lonely? Could be any of those reasons. But I can tell you what I did like... I liked having cravings. I liked my hubby giving me much needed foot rubs (he still does it if I ask, but I don't really need them anymore). I liked people asking me how I was feeling and everything... and I liked being pregnant from months 5-7. Finding out whether it was a boy or girl was the best part! So exciting! :) *sigh.

whats wrong with me?