Am I going crazy?? I want to have another baby! I have a 5 month old little boy, and I want another baby. What is wrong with me? The only thing holding us back is money. It is really tight right now, and adding another child to the mix would not be the best idea in the world. But, we are also Christians and believe that God is the author of life and if He blessed us with another child, He would surely help us provide for that child. I want another baby. Right now we are using natural family planning as our method of birth control. I use fertilityfriend.com, which is AWESOME. I am learning so much about my body and I feel so good about not popping a pill and wondering if it is causing an abortion. I just hope it works.
The funny thing is, I did not enjoy being pregnant at all. AT ALL. I hated it. Maybe because I had a physical job and worked until I was 38 weeks, or because I was huge during the hottest months of the year? Or because my husband worked nights and I felt lonely? Could be any of those reasons. But I can tell you what I did like... I liked having cravings. I liked my hubby giving me much needed foot rubs (he still does it if I ask, but I don't really need them anymore). I liked people asking me how I was feeling and everything... and I liked being pregnant from months 5-7. Finding out whether it was a boy or girl was the best part! So exciting! :) *sigh.
whats wrong with me?
I just quit taking the pill for the very same reason!! I heard a sermon recently talking about the possibily of the pill causing abortions and it about killed me to even think of that possiblity. God opens and closes the womb!
ReplyDeleteI have always felt convicted for relying on a pill to prevent having a baby. I also heard a sermon about it, and it opened my eyes to the negative mindset it puts you in. Because now if you are on the pill and you get pregnant, you automatically think "mistake". I guess thats why my husband and I got pregnant while we were on our honeymoon!
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